Just memorizing some old memories
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Im just memorizing some old memories in my head right now . I remember that he was so innocence , not so different with me . I remember that he greeted me when Ive just gone out from computer laboratory . I was a little bit shocked , because I wasnt close to him as a friend . He's my junior's brother , who was close to me , and I treated her like my sister . She's even closer to me than to her brother . Then one day , when I was playing around with his sister , he came and begged to his sister to lent him some money to go home. But his sister didnt want to . Looked at this situation , I was pity. So I gave him my money , and said that he doesnt need to pay it back . He smiled and wanted to take that money , but his sister forbid me , and finally she gave her money to him. He said thank you and Im leaving. I just smiled and advised her not to be like that to her brother.
I knew him from core group . He can sing very good and has followed many competition. But I never thought that he would be this attractive. After that incident , he often greeted me , and smiled at me . Because of that , I just felt like , this boy is good to me , maybe being his friend is good .
N then I didnt know why , after I broke up with my bf , he's just look more attractive for me. Then before I realized it , the love has grown.
I was in love in him . I didnt know why . It was just happened by itself.
After awhile , his sister realized it and felt really happy . It felt like world much happier for me .
N then something happened . His sister said to me , that he has liked me , but it's no much longer after Im being in a relationship with his friend. Although I've already broken up , it's just too late , because he has alr felt in love in another girl , and she is my friend too . It's just hurt so much , why must be like this?
I knew that I'm so selfish , hope that time can turn back , and I wasnt being in a relationship . I regreted so many things for long time.
Long time has passed . He has being in a relationship with my friend . I just felt like Im so dumb enough to feel like this for long time , and it would just hurt me so much . So I tried to let go.
I can smiled again now , I felt much happier now , and there was no regrets anymore , that was I thought , after tried to let him go. Even he sat beside me when we had final test , I didnt felt nervous anymore . I thought that I succeed.But I was wrong
That feeling came back, at the farewell party. After the final tests , I didnt come to school anymore, and then I came , and saw him from the far . I just thought , eh u why u look at him again huh ? stop it!! but my body didnt want to followed my brain. I just felt , how come u looked this cool to me ? N then when we queued for the food , his friends and him try to break through the queued. I just like freezed and felt , how come u become this cute to me ? How dare u do this to me ?
Im just memorizing some old memories in my head right now . I remember that he was so innocence , not so different with me . I remember that he greeted me when Ive just gone out from computer laboratory . I was a little bit shocked , because I wasnt close to him as a friend . He's my junior's brother , who was close to me , and I treated her like my sister . She's even closer to me than to her brother . Then one day , when I was playing around with his sister , he came and begged to his sister to lent him some money to go home. But his sister didnt want to . Looked at this situation , I was pity. So I gave him my money , and said that he doesnt need to pay it back . He smiled and wanted to take that money , but his sister forbid me , and finally she gave her money to him. He said thank you and Im leaving. I just smiled and advised her not to be like that to her brother.
I knew him from core group . He can sing very good and has followed many competition. But I never thought that he would be this attractive. After that incident , he often greeted me , and smiled at me . Because of that , I just felt like , this boy is good to me , maybe being his friend is good .
N then I didnt know why , after I broke up with my bf , he's just look more attractive for me. Then before I realized it , the love has grown.
I was in love in him . I didnt know why . It was just happened by itself.
After awhile , his sister realized it and felt really happy . It felt like world much happier for me .
N then something happened . His sister said to me , that he has liked me , but it's no much longer after Im being in a relationship with his friend. Although I've already broken up , it's just too late , because he has alr felt in love in another girl , and she is my friend too . It's just hurt so much , why must be like this?
I knew that I'm so selfish , hope that time can turn back , and I wasnt being in a relationship . I regreted so many things for long time.
Long time has passed . He has being in a relationship with my friend . I just felt like Im so dumb enough to feel like this for long time , and it would just hurt me so much . So I tried to let go.
I can smiled again now , I felt much happier now , and there was no regrets anymore , that was I thought , after tried to let him go. Even he sat beside me when we had final test , I didnt felt nervous anymore . I thought that I succeed.But I was wrong
That feeling came back, at the farewell party. After the final tests , I didnt come to school anymore, and then I came , and saw him from the far . I just thought , eh u why u look at him again huh ? stop it!! but my body didnt want to followed my brain. I just felt , how come u looked this cool to me ? N then when we queued for the food , his friends and him try to break through the queued. I just like freezed and felt , how come u become this cute to me ? How dare u do this to me ?
After that , I tried to text him , and he replied! Im so happy but the conversation just stopped while we were texting . I just felt lonely after that . Today I chatted with him. But I knew that he doesnt like me anymore , I knew it . Its just make me sad . But I think , its ok for me to fight for my feeling right ? So I will just try to defend this feeling , and look for his feeling back to me :')
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