Try to be real or fake ?
So today I gonna post something beside the Chinese New Year greet,
many stuffs run out of my mind earlier , as there are a lot of stuffs that you can imagine , around you , and somehow you want to tell someone about it but it's just get really hard to get out of your mind. And that what does happened to me.
Let me tell you about this holiday
I got about 4 days free from school and the others stuffs, so I went to my aunt's home . I have much relaxing times. But I didn't do anything , just sit here and there, open my oldie laptop . Then when the boredom started to attack me , I opened the movies folders and guess what ? I got an amazing movies, not that amazing I think , but the film is really great. 'A Walk To Remember' , the 2002 film , cast by Mandy Moore and Shane West .
I know it's a romance drama movie, but I don't understand somehow I just think 'ah I'm gonna have a good time if I watch this one' so I just watch it. And in the end I got that good time :D it's a little bit touching , and make me wondering about my life. I just got hard to choose a decision for everything , even to just open my heart for someone , I mean I've already got hurt many times, and somehow I just protect myself because I don't want to let it happens again . Which it's mean that I must to forget about love story in my high school life for about months . And I consider that it's not a really bad idea. But the problem is how does that felt to someone , when he's already do his best to impress you , to make you like him , and they all end with useless result? Ok I know that I complicate everything here , and I'm used to be a careless person . But it's not me that we talk about right ? I mean it's the other's feeling . I just not good enough to make him feel like that, it wasn't worthy enough. But I just don't want to lie to my feeling , I don't want to be fake , but I don't want to hurt my friend. sigh , just forget about this stuff that I post , I just feel much more relieved after I post this stuff that had been bothering me earlier.
hug
yuni
many stuffs run out of my mind earlier , as there are a lot of stuffs that you can imagine , around you , and somehow you want to tell someone about it but it's just get really hard to get out of your mind. And that what does happened to me.
Let me tell you about this holiday
I got about 4 days free from school and the others stuffs, so I went to my aunt's home . I have much relaxing times. But I didn't do anything , just sit here and there, open my oldie laptop . Then when the boredom started to attack me , I opened the movies folders and guess what ? I got an amazing movies, not that amazing I think , but the film is really great. 'A Walk To Remember' , the 2002 film , cast by Mandy Moore and Shane West .
I know it's a romance drama movie, but I don't understand somehow I just think 'ah I'm gonna have a good time if I watch this one' so I just watch it. And in the end I got that good time :D it's a little bit touching , and make me wondering about my life. I just got hard to choose a decision for everything , even to just open my heart for someone , I mean I've already got hurt many times, and somehow I just protect myself because I don't want to let it happens again . Which it's mean that I must to forget about love story in my high school life for about months . And I consider that it's not a really bad idea. But the problem is how does that felt to someone , when he's already do his best to impress you , to make you like him , and they all end with useless result? Ok I know that I complicate everything here , and I'm used to be a careless person . But it's not me that we talk about right ? I mean it's the other's feeling . I just not good enough to make him feel like that, it wasn't worthy enough. But I just don't want to lie to my feeling , I don't want to be fake , but I don't want to hurt my friend. sigh , just forget about this stuff that I post , I just feel much more relieved after I post this stuff that had been bothering me earlier.
hug
yuni
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