Voices in My Head ~late post

                Have you ever got your head is just full of that sounds? Like some whispering things? Because I do. I often get that thing after I’m watching movies. Just now I watched some movies, old though. 50/50, Stuck In Love, and The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo. Just after finishing watch them, I got a lot of thought in my head.

                The movie just brought me again to the same problems that had been bothering me for months now. Do you ever just sit there on the couch, and think how your future could be? With people around you asked where will you go? Which university will you go into? Which faculty are you planning to go? , etc. And it brings you too , to flashback. About what you’ve gotten this far. If I was still a 10^th grader, then I can said that I’m totally great now. But I’ve already 11^th , and I haven’t reached anything in this 1 year all along in this high school. If it’s just like that, how can I answer that question people kept asking me? I haven’t even done much changing or maybe progress that shows my interest about my future.

                Today, there will be a LDKS. Some steps you have to pass if you want to enter an organization. And I didn’t join it. Why? There have been so many problems I couldn’t even solve yet and I don’t think these organization things and whatever can give me any help. It made me think about it several times though. I mean , sometimes I regretted the decision I’ve taken. But again I considered about the positive sides.

                And there were some Olympiad team selection. You know I have passion in Physics. BUT I DIDN’T EVEN PREPARED MYSELF FOR THE TEST. Look who’s being such a pathetic person here. And now I’m regretting it so much.

                All these things made me think again, all about my future. Everyone around me race to get higher score or be more active in organization. And here’s me just laying on the bed and reading some novels with the milk on my left and the chips on my right. *That’s why I’m being so much fatter than before , I even need to unzip my jeans before using it while I didn’t need to before -__- . And what made it worse is I just kept thinking about it but doing nothing. Yeah absolutely nothing. Like I can do this later, no need to do that now , blablaba. Which is bring it to the worst part -_-. I need me to turn to be what I used to be. Someone please help me, give me some tips so I can start myself to face the future, and truth that I’m no longer smart or anything.

                Oh yeah anyway I need some scholarship information for some university. I’m interested in Interior Design, Graphic Design, or Engineering. I would like to get some information if you have one :D thanks a lot.And if anyone knows where can I get part time job because I’m running of cash, and I would love to work as free lance or do part time job, so I can start invest my money on something.  I can do many things, like doing the layout things on magazine, or teaching , although I’m just a beginner, or I can sing too, if you would to offer a job, please send me email to tjungyuni@gmail.com . I’m totally thank you if you give me any jobs that good.

                Hah, so now I must study chemistry because on Monday I’ll get a test, so wish me luck. Bye